Hana nara tsubomi no watashi no jinsei…

Towa ni

Futari o
tsunagu ito ga

Mietara ii ne
to

Me o tojita
hohoemi o

Ima mo
oboeteru

I believe that it would
be nice if I can see the thread that bonds the two of us

And I still remember
the smile when I close my eyes

Katachi no
nai mono

nara

Koware wa
shinai to

Dakishimeta
nukumori ga nokoru yo

If it is something that
has no shape

I believe that it won’t
break

The hug’s warmth is
still left

Anata no kaze
ni natte

Subete o
tsutsunde agetai

Mune ni
hibiku koe ga

Sore wa towa
ni

Toki ga
tomaru made

I want to be your wind

And engulf everything
for you

The voice that echoes
in my heart

That is to eternity

Until the time stops

Aitakute
aenai yoru

Omoi o sora
ni hirogete

Tonde yuku
yo, soba ni iru yo

Onaji kimochi
de iru

nara

In the night where I
can’t meet you, though I want to

I spread my feelings
towards the sky

I will fly; I will be
by your side

If we have the same
feelings

Anata no kaze
ni natte

Subete o
tsutsunde agetai

Itsumo itsu
no hi ni mo

Sore ga boku
no kotae sa

I want to be your wind

And engulf everything
for you

Always, no matter when

That’s my answer

Anata no soba
de

Kaze ni natte

Tsutsunde
agetai

Tooku, anata
dake o

Towa ni

I want to be the wind
beside you

And engulf everything
for you

Far away, only you

Until eternity

Itoshii hito
yo…

My beloved…

Itu
lirik lagu Towa ni, yang dinyanyiin sama Ayaka dan The Gospellers di Music Fair
21. Gak tau sih sebenernya yang nyanyi siapa, hehe.. Lagu yang bagus, menurut
gw.. Towa ni sendiri artinya kira-kira to
eternity, maaf ya kalo terjemahan di atas agak kacau, susah soalnya

Ok
d, sampai ketemu lagi.. Hv a nice day!

If my love
life until now is like falling off from a cliff, then now I guess I’m at the
bottom of that cliff. I don’t know what to do anymore. This time I thought, “at
last I’ve found her”, but in the end she’s just like any other girl I liked before,
never liked me backL. 

Why does she
change? Or is it just me? Was she really
like this from the beginning? Is it
really just me daydreaming that at last maybe I met that someone? Why does she
suddenly act like that? Did I do something wrong? Or then again, I might’ve
misinterpreted everything like always.

Why am I
always like this anyway? It’s too easy for me to fall for someone while, on the
contrary, it’s like impossible for that someone to fall for me. In the end I
just keep getting hurt. If love, for me, means to be hurt then should I even
love someone?

I’m so jealous
with people around me. They are holding hands, giving presents, watching movies
together, studying together, and do all those stuff. When I go to mall and see
them like that, I can’t help feeling lonely. Why can’t I be like them? I’m
almost 19 and I’ve never had any girlfriend. Well, I know I’m not that good
with women, but…

Hehe, thoughts
like that keep swirling inside of me that sometimes I can’t even think of
anything else, pathetic, aren’t I? I always believe that I’m like this because
someday I will meet the one whom I can boast about, someone with whom I can be
happy, and because I’ve never had someone before, I’ll be really thankful for
her presence. Whenever I think about that,
I can be relieved a bit. I also believe that because the way I am right now is
not enough, because I have to make myself better all the time that up until
now, there is no one.

But, as time
goes by, I’m starting to doubt that. No, maybe doubt is not the right word; I
guess I’m starting to losing hope. I kept asking myself, “am I that bad”, or,
“is there really no good points in me?” I really have crisis of confidence, eh? What to do then?

“A fragile heart has broken before, I don’t
think it could endure another pain” is what Westlife said on their song,
“Fragile Heart” and I think I have that kind of heart. I can only wish that
someday there will be someone who will gladly accept me.BTW, my friend once
told me that somehow I will send him my wedding invitation; I guess I should
believe him and say, Amieeeeeennnn… J

For now, I
guess I’ll just enjoy my time at the bottom of the cliff, watching the
brilliant blue sky from down below. Someday I’ll put myself together and climb
the cliff with all my might, for I believe that sky is even more beautiful if I
saw it from above this cliff.

 Thanks for reading

-Caesario
Permana

Kesa, FS o aketa soshite kanojo no shoutbox o mita.
.
Hontou ni bikkuri shita yo, mou kawatta, kanojo no shoutout tte..

demo sono serifu wa boku no tame desuka?
Sou nara hontou ni kanashii yo..
Sore wa anata no henji shinai riyuu desuka? Boku nanka machigai demo shita no? Nande? Boku ja dame nano?
Aahh…Sore wa hontou ja nai nara, douka henji shite kudasai ne, matteiru kara…

Hehe, udah dulu deh posting kali ini, pokoknya lagi sedih banget udah ah, sekarang mau menenangkan diri  dulu terus "rencananya" nanti malem mau mulai blajar anum, soalnya bahannya banyak banget..

yasu, mata ne…

Huihh..akhirnya selesai juga UAS buat tahun ini, walaupun tidak diakhiri dengan cukup baik sih, hehe..
Buat yang besok masih ada UAS, semangat ya! kalian pasti bisa!

Udah dulu deh, gk jelas mau nulis apa…

"Kimi ga boku no mae ni arawareta hi kara

Nani mo kamo ga chigaku mietanda"

"Eversince the day you appeared in front of me

  Everything I see looked different"

Thank you for making my life more beautiful

Halo, pertama kali mencoba mem-post blog nih..
Besok udah UAS matel aja, tapi gk ada niat belajar sama sekali, hehe..
Jadi mau curhat aja nih…

Senshuu, tomodachi ga kiisasete kureta, kanojo wa ano toki hontou ni boku kara hanareterun datte… sugoku kanashii na. Sore wa kanojo wa boku no koto ga zenzen suki ja nai imi desu yo ne? Demo shikata nai wa, sonna koto..Boku wa akirameru shika nai..

Ma, sore wa mou mukashi no koto ni nasaseru tsumori dakedo, yappari ima made kanojo to deau to fuan ni naru yo..Ima wa dekiru dake kanojo no o aitaku mo nai yo..

Sore to ima wa boku mata suki na hito ga dekita yo..sugoku kirei de omoshiroi hito desu yo..Dakedo kanojo wa boku no koto nanka dou omou ka zenzen wakattenai desu yo..

Dou sureba ii ka? Futatabi kata omoi ni naru no ka na?

Ma, ii desu..Ima wa asu ni tachi mukaou!